everything changes.
i defined myself in a certain way.
knew who i was, where i fit in.
i was content, happy, at peace.
the familiarity is gone and
where i was comfortable,
now i am nervous,
insecure and stupid.
loss of myself and
flashbacks to loss of friends and
desperation to navigate
through the adjustments and
find myself not alone
with myself on the other side.
Pondereality 
great gains come from the unknown…the state of floundering. Your beautiful heart will know peace again. love and grace to you always, Allison
There was a time when changes were welcome
viewed as possibilities, adventures & challenges
then joy, pain, fear, manic moments & falls
disappointments brought you back
to a time of stillness
a time to heal, relearn the arts,
create a solid base
Your enrichment made all of us grow
seeking the artist & the prophet
But life does not sustain patterns of comfort
It thrives on the diversity & abstract
Your powers are in the sharing,
your embrace is meant to grow-
Don’t be afraid of the strangeness
as you reach out towards the sky
This beginning is brand new
And you are not the same
You are a wise elder sister